I am loving my work, my gym time and still feel I have time to spend with hubby.
Well, today I have a cold and I feel rotten. It was my intention to go to the gym today as I am trying to keep my routine of 6 days a week training in place as I feel like I’m really making progress in all areas of my training.
However, today I decided to take a rest day to try and beat this cold before it gets the better of me.
My brain was in a spin with this decision.
Exercise is the way I calm my anxiety and makes me feel good about myself.
So instead of resting, like I should be doing, I’m pottering round the house doing chores to make myself feel better for taking time off; to not feel guilty about taking time off. Washing up, putting the clean washing away, cleaning the bathroom etc. Why do I do this?
Why can I not be happy with the decisions I make and allow my brain to rest? Instead I have to beat myself up for changing my plans.
I keep thinking I’m in control of my anxiety.
But am I really?
Or is it still controlling me? L