When asked today if I felt I was good enough, I answered that I was 20% perfect.
When asked where I saw the people I look up to, I answered that they 80% perfect.
I was then asked where I wanted to see myself. Of course, I wanted to be the same as everyone else. I wanted to be equal.
I want to be equal.
What would make me equal? Why am I not equal? Am I not worthy enough to be equal?
I was asked who told me I wasn’t good enough. I had to admit that no one had said that. It’s what I perceive people to think about me. It’s all in my head.
I was also asked what would help me feel like an equal. Straight away I wanted to say that I need the affirmation from others to prove to myself that I’m good enough.
However, I know that’s not the correct answer. The correct answer is that I should have more faith in my own abilities. The only way I can get from 20% perfect to 80% perfect is by changing my mindset and improve the way that I see myself.
So tomorrow I’m going to focus on believing that I’m 21% perfect, then the day after that 22%perfect… And so on. So eventually, I can get to the 80% perfect that I desire.
So why not 100% perfect?
Come on, even I know that’s not realistic! Lol!!!
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Interesting… I guess my problem is that I know I am 20%, that I don’t want to be near 100%, simply because it’s a fact no one is, and that I don’t care to be 20%. Before I used to be sad because I was not, or didn’t appear to be 80% like everyone else. But now I’m careless and I have no effort to aim to be even 21%. My set of mind is: I will be whatever until I die and I couldn’t care less. All of that doesn’t make me happy, but, again, what does?
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